Tonight I’m trying to put a positive spin on something that has made me feel a bit shit! Maybe it’s not something I should blog about, but I’ve always kept my mouth shut when people have treated me badly in the past, and I really feel like I need to change some things, this being one of them. Maybe this is just my perception, maybe I havent been treated badly, I guess I might not be in the best place to judge.
A little while ago some really big people in my ‘industry’ started following me. I was incredibly flattered as they don’t follow many people, and it felt pretty big to have been ‘honoured’. They never interacted though, which I found knd of odd, and, to be honest, a little rude, but hey, busy people and all that.
Anyway, I released my e-book, the process of which I shared openly. I worked my backside off quite frankly, and spent a not insignificant amount of money testing it, making it look good, etc. I am incredibly proud of that book, and everything that it represents about who I am, and the internal challenges I overcame to get it out there.
Now, I absolutely know that recipes arent sacred, and recipe ideas even less so; I knew it wouldn’t be long before there was another thing out there like mine (maybe there already is, I honestly don’t know) but tonight I can’t help but feel a bit cheated, because these big names have come up with their own version, and people are gasping in amazement at their achievement. All I can see is my one unique selling point now being utterly worthless when they give it away for free, which I completely understand is absolutely their right, they’ve not, to my knowledge, stolen anything from me after all.
I’m just a 42 year old mother of four, trying to earn a little bit of money to help pay the bills; I can’t possibly compete with the glamour and glitz of a massive stateside following. In all honesty, I have no desire to compete. I truly believe there is enough room for us all out here on the internet. I guess I just hoped for, I’m not sure what really, but not the feeling this has left me with in the pit of my stomach tonight 😦